I always ask God for billboards. I figure He knows how stubborn I am so He knows i need black and white answers. But after my devotion this morning, and after thinking about it on the way to work, I act like God wants to trick me or something. God doesn't want to play games with me and make me search for what He wants. He just wants me to seek Him. Seek His plan. I often have to relate it to my own kids. Sometimes I have to prove to Naomi that she can think and make good decisions on her own. She just has to seek God and remember to talk and listen to Him. The same with Father. He can give me answers every where I turn. Whether it be a billboard, a simple word from my husband or a friend, a situation, and the list goes on and on. Today, I want to be like Samuel..."Speak God. Your servant is listening."

Patience

I haven't wrote anything in awhile. Been busy with work, kids, church, etc. But today I feel a need to get some thoughts down. I may have to start doing this every day again. It seems I was closest to God when I was writing what I was learning. And I miss that. Today I couldn't stop crying this morning. So many people in my life are struggling with their marriages and it breaks my heart. I want to get my story out so bad, but trying to learn to wait on Him more. I want to use it when He wants me to and not of my own doing. Not to mention, Cory has the better story. I pray God will open up a door for both of us...a way to help others and proclaim that God is how we made it! A way to give HIm the glory..not of ourselves..but HIM!